A Story of Relapse: Episode I

The definition of relapse is, “suffering deterioration after a period of temporary improvement.” This temporary improvement is something that I’ve learned to call sobriety, and it requires consistent effort on my part to maintain. August 1st of last year is my original sobriety date and marks my first attempt at getting sober. It was a rollercoaster. First came residential treatment …

Case Management for Teens

When you are suffering from substance abuse, or are close to someone who is, chaos becomes the new normal.  At the core of addiction is arriving at a point in your life where some, if not all, of it is unmanageable.  The longer addiction goes on, the more chaotic the situation gets.  Not only does someone suffering from addiction begin …

Ketamine: A Personal Memoir

“I remember the k hole felt like you were falling forward into a dark hole. A forward kind of motion where I just curled up into a ball basically, and it was just darkness. My eyes were closed, but I couldn’t even open my eyes if I wanted to. It felt like falling forward.” According to the National Institute on …

Ketamine: A Personal Medical Experience

“I started to think, have I gone into some futuristic place? Then I wondered if I was dead because nothing made sense to me – my wife wasn’t there. There were no doctors – everything just looked white. I started thinking, maybe I’m dead and this is what being dead is – lying still for eternity in this white space. …

Opiate Addiction is an Epidemic

I was in my first year of Graduate School at the University of Washington when I injured myself in a movement class. I herniated a disc in my lower back and was in extreme pain. L5. I had five years of sobriety under my belt, attended AA meetings, had worked the 12-steps of Alcoholics Anonymous and thought I had a …

A New Way of Life

I want to start out by thanking God for my recovery. It is a sheer miracle that I am sober. My life is good today, not because of anything materialistic or external, but rather because of how I feel on the inside. This is a direct result of working the twelve steps of Alcoholics Anonymous with a sponsor. Individual and …

Heroin: The Evergrowing Epidemic

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Heroin has always terrified me. I just had this strange feeling that if I ever tried heroin I would fall immediately in love and most likely die from an overdose within months. I’m just like that. A heavy hitter drug addict. When I find something I love, I go for it. All-or-nothing style. The self-awareness I had coupled with extreme …

The Similarities Between Adderall & Methamphetamine

“I remember the first time I did Methamphetamine, I tried it, and I just felt invincible, like nothing could stop me. I wanted to do this the rest of my life. I was willing to steal from my parents. It didn’t matter what the cost was; I was willing to cross any boundary to get that drug. I would lie, …

Addiction and the Family

Being a part of a family is unlike any other relationship you ever have in your life. There’s something different about the relationships we have with our siblings and parents, something that we don’t find in other types of relationships. For the most part, we don’t get to choose our family, yet, it is very difficult to escape the “orbit” …

The Dangers of Adderall Addiction

I was assisting teach an alignment based technique workshop in August of 2016 on the beautiful island of Friday Harbor in Washington. Orchestrating this workshop was a dream of mine, and all I could focus on was getting more Adderall. I had run out early that week. I had three more days of the workshop, and I could not imagine …