Why did you decide to get sober, or what turn of events lead you to Clear Recovery Center?
Getting sober wasn’t actually a choice I made for myself; I had been introduced to AA when I was 18 years old because I had been arrested and sentenced to attend a few meetings a week but I was young and it just didn’t stick. When I was reintroduced to the program this time around I was able to humble myself and allow for the program to work in my life granted I kept an open mind and showed willingness. I had been arrested a few times in 2015 for drug related offenses and it was obvious I had a problem – I was just in too deep to see it myself so my mom, uncle and therapist in Northern California held a few interventions for me which ultimately led me to Bodhi Casa Sober Living and Clear Recovery Center.
How has your perspective on life changed since beginning recovery?
Realistically, before I got sober and during the time I was participating in active addiction I had no real perspective on anything. It was so skewed and bogged down by my addiction to drugs and the lifestyle of being a drug dealer that I couldn’t differentiate the true from the false like the big book states. My life seemed normal but it was so far from it that when I started in sobriety I was able to see how normal people live. Eating meals on a consistent basis, getting a good nights rest, working out, making my bed and cleaning the house – these things that seemed impossible when I was out there became second nature as I continued to stay sober. My perspective on life today is a complete 180 since beginning recovery. I try to practice gratitude, honesty, open mindedness and willingness on a daily basis. I try not to take credit for anything I have in my life today as it’s all a direct result of Alcoholics Anonymous, relying on a Higher Power and staying sober one dat at a time.
What are you looking forward to in the future?
In the future, I’m looking forward to everything and anything. It sounds cheesy as Hell but there were so many instances in active addiction that should have taken me out and for me to still be alive today, I am truly grateful. I’d like to go back to school and earn a degree, I’d like to figure out my passions and establish a career where I’m happy and I feel like I’m making a difference. Continuing in AA to work on my program, forming lasting relationships and being of service to others are all things I’d like to see in my future.
What have you learned about yourself in recovery?
I’ve learned so much about myself in the short time that I’ve been sober and I am now armed with facts about myself. I know that I am riddled with fear and I still to this day care about what people think of me. I try to portray a certain type of person, the person that everyone likes and realistically that might not be as true as I want it to be. Know that I like things – money, cars, clothes, etc. and I want those things because again, I care what people think of me. I also know that I’m a pretty solid dude; I work hard, I care about others and want to see my peers succeed. I love my family and I try to be there for them as much as possible. I make mistakes pretty often but I now have a way of life where I can make things right and move on. Not taking myself too seriously and being able to have a good time still have also been huge parts of my recovery.
If you could reach out to someone new in recovery, what advice would you give to them?
If i could reach out to someone new, I’d tell them to just trust the process. Everything in life is easier said than done but it will all be worth it in the end. A big thing for me when I started in recovery was the thought that my life was over and that I’d never have fun or laugh again, and that’s so far from the truth it’s incredible. I’ve had so much fun in my recovery so far and removing the drugs and alcohol was just the beginning. Find a group of people you can laugh with and feel comfortable around, go to meetings where you can relate to others, find a sponsor you can trust and slowly but surely you’ll start to enjoy life again.